Re: Poetic Corner (for the Artist in us)

My poems are way too taboo for this site.

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This is probable. Too bad. I'd love to read them. Nothing's too taboo for me.

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I want to break something, I want....to break....myself Tear myself so compleatly That I can't be fixed Maybe then things would Be quiet... This unrelentless screaming I can't drown it out No matter how loud I turn up my music I want to talk... But words wont fill my mouth My wrists scream for relife My mind for peace both elude me while friends say: I'm here, I love you, You arent ALONE.....Just more screaming....

Re: Poetic Corner (for the Artist in us)

Hi Vengey.
Take care of yourself.

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People tell me its going to get better. What they dont tell me is how hard it will be, how long it will take or that I will be a compleatly different person when I get there. They dont tell me some nights will be filled with me sitting up against my bed crying and taking jagged breaths trying to calm the storm in my head. They dont tell me that some days I will wish I had a razor to make the angry words that fill my veins escape hoping that by using the razor I can let them out, make them stop hurting me. They dont tell me some days I wont have the strength to look at myself in the mirror because my body feels like it belongs to a stranger. They dont tell me of sleepless nights and dark circles under my eyes the next day. They dont tell me that some times when I need to eat that voice will tell me no you are too fat. They dont tell me it will be easy because they would be lying. They do tell me they love me. They tell me they are here. They tell me i am not alone. They tell me I have to be strong. They tell me to fight. Well this is me fighting. This is me hoping that things are starting to get better.

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ever had one of those nights where nothing really makes sense? like it feels like there is so much in my head that there is no room for me. Its so loud I cant hear my thoughts. I have yet to go to bed because I cant. I cant just lay there thinking. This may not even make sense. But there is so much....so much...too much.

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Ruminations from the Gutter
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Let us dwell upon
that solemn stick creature
with deep holes for eyes.
Whom thunders about merry streets
Distressed for none to greet
Withered thin with a wistful mind
& hopeful heart of buzzing flies.

Is he bound to this pitiful fate?
To lay low & idle
as a drunkenly tossed single from a pair?
As a forlorn flower left beside the vase
wherein the other blooms wild
amid the dying odor of his quiet despair?
As a man alive, lowered in the dirt
cheap casket, clawing at the splintered wood
for only the hope of breath of air?

Is he forgotten by this starry world
to be left straggling & blown
by the hurried winds of an infinite Universe?
To be bound, tied and shackled
pre-determined to exist as a tired bundle for the fire?
As a perfect specimen for the roaring, public pyre?
To be found wishing from the sinistral apex
of the holy gutter
for one pair of merciful angel eyes
to fix upon his thunderous,
crestfallen poet's stare?